Not Myself.

I feel everyday as though I am possibly not who I am, or not who I should be.

I was contemplating this last night, as I thought about my job.
At a desk all day, somewhat knowledgeable in regards to medical terminology, testings, and general things.
Dealing with somewhat frustrating people, answering phones, booking doctors appointment, and generally doing a job I never thought I could do, or would do.

Then looking different, and feeling different inside.

And knowing that things are going to change all the more, pushing things to change, wanting things to change if it's the last thing that I can do.

I try not to think about the way things are, because they only confuse me and cause me to question if I am where I should be.