I struggle to find essence in who I am.
I find myself counting down the days to nothing.
I anxiously think of all the things I need to accomplish.
I wait in quietness, hoping for a tumultuous relationship to start.
I hope every day that things might change, yet dread the inevitable change.
I look around to see people happy and at peace, and wish I was one of those and yet...
I enjoy my unhappiness and find solace in the emotion of sadness.