So so so many thoughts whirling around in my head right now, but what I can mainly think about and wonder about is how the world that we live and the people we live besides can be so evil and cruel.
How can "love" drive us to hate each other? How can we hurt and betray humankind?
How did the Germans justify the genocide of the Jews? How did they, in the their minds, tolerate the mind-numbing hurt and pain that they put those prisoners in concentration camps through?
Is it not scary how quickly and thoroughly we can be converted to believing something that is so far from the truth, it is completely unrecognizable?
Is it not frightening, the capacity that we each have in ourselves, to damage and tear apart those around us? Skin is just skin, a breathing organ that tears with external force and causes us to bleed, and even deeper is the heart that is metaphysical and can be hurt far worse than our epidermis.
Why do people continually opt to bring a child into this world, that has the ability to damage and cause so much pain? Are the brief moments of joy worth subjecting someone to the cruel and harsh truths that glare at us through the tomes of history?
Will we ever learn from our mistakes? How do we continue to make the some mistakes and choices over and over again? How can people torture other people and enjoy their screaming and tears? How is possible for goodness and evil to flourish together?
It's almost a curse, really, to grow up. True you might experience life far more fully than you did as a child, but is the loss of innocence worth it? As a child you might look up at black smoke in the air and imagine someone in the forest with a comfortable campfire to keep them warm. As an adult you realize that the ominous black spirals of smoke are not campfires around which a group of campers huddle to cook their meals...the truth of crematoriums and burnt bodies cannot escape your mind.
There is a definite wonder and joy in life and being able to enjoy and utilize our senses as we should, but always there is this awareness at the back of our minds...that something dark is in the shadows all around us, and it will never truly be gone.
I wish the world would open up its eyes and see what it has become...twisted by wars, famine, epidemics, death...It has become a place where dream are possible...but so are nightmares.