Showing posts with label New Year. Show all posts
Showing posts with label New Year. Show all posts

Sunday, 6 January 2013

New Year's Plans

This is a bit overdue as I had been planning to write an entry on January 1st in celebration of the New Year.

I hate making New Year's resolutions because I find that immediately I believe they are doomed to failure based on their well known statistics.  I'd rather say casually that I have New Year's plans and leave it at that.


My New Year's Plans include:

-finding a new apartment (by April)
-buying a digital SLR
-losing 30 lbs.
-learning to sew
-MAYBE getting a 2nd greyhound (depending on new apartment)
-start a savings account

So I think they're all pretty reasonable.  The hardest one will obviously be the losing 30 lbs but I've been doing clean eating (with the exception of Cheat Saturdays) and feel pretty confident that I'll be able to stick to it this time.

A friend of mine on Facebook noted that each year she would pick one word and work toward that in whatever way required.  For example, if she felt led to choose "peaceful", she would seek to find peace in reading or spending alone time etc.  This year she chose "purposeful" and the idea kinda stuck with me.

So what's my word for this year?  Well, don't laugh, but I decided to go with "dazzled".  Now, I know that sounds glitzy, like a My Little Pony line or a nail polish colour, but the context is much different.   

While reading Les Miserables this past week (and I still have so much left of it), I was struck by a paragraph that I drew the word from.


"...He could not perhaps say what took place in his spirit, what went out from him and what entered in:  a mysterious transaction between the infinity of the soul and the infinity of the universe. He pondered on the greatness and the living presence of God, on the mystery of eternity in the future and, even more strange, eternity in the past, on all the infinity manifest to his eyes and to his senses; and without seeking to comprehend the incomprehensible he contemplated these things. He did not scrutinise God but let his eyes be dazzled..."

And so this is what has truly captured my heart.  How often do we attempt to find reasons or logic, to understand the plans of God and to get into His mindset. We want to know it all and we want to understand the way the world works, fractals and wonders, creation that astonishes us and perplexes us.  Scientists spend their lives attempting to break down and examine, reason away why the world is able to function on such an evolved scale without believing in an intelligent designer.

In some ways I find that we spend our lives taking pictures, attempting to capture every moment and save it, sometimes losing focus and lacking the true appreciation of the wonderful things in life. Such a lesson that we can continually learn over and over.. It reminds me of a sermon I heard as a child where the preacher extolled: "Don't glance, gaze..."

So that is also my New Year's plan:  to spend more time allowing myself to be awestruck by the beauty around, by the greatness and infinite nature of God, but the life I have been.

Cute pictures of kitties and my boyfriend smiling at me to end this more serious post!




Wednesday, 28 December 2011

Happy (almost) New Year!

So much has changed since this time in 2010.  I remember not having any firm New Year plans, then going over to my friend's house and realizing all over again that New Years means nothing unless you're spending it with someone or people that you love.

In 2010 I was lost and wandering, unhappy with the life I was leading and mistakes I kept making, but feeling powerless to stop myself or find another path to take.   I found contentment in the strangest place, with someone I had no relationship with and who inexplicably fell fully into my life.  We woke up the first morning together and the sun shone so brilliantly through my bedroom window.   

If I could sum up 2011 in a few words it would be:  new experiences.  The entire year feels like a time of experiencing new things that I have never felt or imagined before.  Instead of facing another year with trepidation, I look forward to what is to come, the journeys that are ahead, a bit frightening because they are unforeseeable, yet also exciting.

The animals make me laugh and help me remember that our lives are short and it truly is the little things that count.  Their song and dance with each other, scratching and fighting, Licorice accidentally stepping on Mr. Cat, Mr. Cat fighting back with his claws and then discovering them sleeping together...it amuses me and makes me grateful for my wonderful little family.




My boyfriend reminds me that we come into love not necessarily deserving all the great things it has to offer, but yet being given so much by grace.  Surely there is nothing greater than that:  receiving what is ultimately a gift from each other.  He is my namaste.



Life reminds me that we have the power to choose what we want from it.  We are not bound to one path or one decision that will carve out a future beyond our control...we are not powerless in the face of the unknown.  All that we can do is exist in the here and now and experience the beautiful and terrible things that life gives us.   I struggle with this acceptance a lot, with regards to losing weight and looking "beautiful".   Sometimes it feels like my body is beyond my control and I feel frightened and scared by that concept, but the reality is that I have the power to change my body and to grow in becoming more comfortable within my skin.   My personal challenge to myself for 2012 is to run the 5k Around-The-Bay Race and continue working on my physical fitness levels.



That is all I have today.  I pray and hope that 2012 will be a challenging and fruitful time for myself and for you.
~Peace

Monday, 26 December 2011

End Of The Year Reads



Not My Daughter by Barbara Delinsky
I compare Delinsky's novels in my mind to Nora Roberts, Nicholas Sparks and Jodie Picoult.  They appeal to a specific type of reader, one that enjoys a little bit of light entertainment, a gentle story.  To be honest, I shouldn't even have this book on my list as I couldn't force myself to finish it.

It starts out promisingly enough:  a single mother who had a baby at a young age discovers her seventeen year old daughter is pregnant, and even worse, two of her daughter's friends are pregnant as well.  They appear to have made pact to bring up their babies together as young single mothers and the entire novel deals with the impact it has on the main character, the older single mother who has tried to raise her daughter to choose a different life style.
Why couldn't I finish it?  Frankly, the book was boring and dry.  The dialogue between the characters was predictable and unexciting, the descriptions uninspired and generally lack lustre...for such a well known and toted author, I expected more.  I expect that will be the first and last Delinsky book I attempt to read.  
Without meaning to be condescending or rude, and as I mentioned earlier, her books appeal to certain type of people who haven't stretched their literary limitations.  If you enjoy a fast and easy read, I would recommend this book.  In the meantime, I'd rather entertain myself with some Berenstein Bears.





The Book Of Negroes by Lawrence Hill
I have never read in depth on the trials of the Africans during the slavery years.  Of course I was exposed to some details and watched the mini-series "Roots", so I knew somewhat of how these people suffered, but this read opened my eyes far more to the pain slavery inflicted on this group of people.

"Book of Negroes" takes you on a journey through the eyes of a young woman, captured into slavery while still an adolescent.  The book explores what it was like to be a girl becoming an African-American woman when slavery was still considered socially acceptable, even expected.
I don't want to say much about this book because I think it's something that should be picked up and read, but I will say that I found it riveting.  I couldn't put it down and even though I was horrified by what the protagonist went through, it was like watching a train wreck or a house burn down:  I was unable to tear my eyes away.
I highly recommend this.  Fun fact:  the author lives in my city!  I had no idea until I read his mini-bio on the back cover.






Something For The Pain by Paul Austin
This book was an easy read.  In fact, to be honest, most of the books I read during these past few months have been very easy to quickly read, but back on track..."Something For The Pain" is a type of autobiography written by Paul Austin, a doctor who specializes in ER medicine.  The book covers the doctor's venture in ER medicine and the different cases he dealt with through his years working in the emergency department.  Perhaps the most compelling point of the novel is the changes the author experiences to himself personally while learning how to survive and cope with working evening shifts and handling difficult cases.
If you enjoy medicine related literature, I would recommend this book as a fast read.  However, do expect to be moved to tears or to read something profound.  Although the author has certainly seen many compelling situations during his work, his words and expressions are rather dry and matter of fact, attesting to his calling as a doctor not writer.






The Birth House by Ami McKay
Bored at work one day, I picked up this in the hospital convenience store for $11 and it was money well spent.  "The Birth House" is a story about a young girl named Dora Rare who apprentices with an elderly midwife.  She learns how to deliver babies and create and administer home remedies for a various assortment of ailments.  The book is rich with descriptions of herbs and medicines that were commonly used in the time era of the early 1900s.  Set in Nova Scotia, the book delves in the lives of the farmers and city folk who created homes and futures for themselves despite difficult circumstances.

Dora sees heartbreak and growth, birth and death, happiness and sorrow.  The lives that the characters live are stirring and fascinating, especially compared to the current culture we are living in.  The novel also touches on the changes the world begins to see, moving from midwives and home births to hospital deliveries in sterilized areas.  It was very thought provoking for me as I began to consider how much of our medicine has moved to being sterile and dominated by pharmaceutical companies and doctors and whether that change has been a wholly positive thing.
I can compare "The Birth House" to "Book Of Negroes" in the fact that it also details the journey for a young girl into grown woman, learning the different lessons that life has to offer and becoming wiser with age.
While "The Birth House" has a somewhat feminist sentiment, it's not nauseating or overly preachy.  If I could compare "The Birth House" to another series of novels that have a similar feel, it would be L.M. Montgomery's "Anne Of Green Gables" series. 
It was a more difficult read, in that the descriptions were sometimes lengthy and monotonous, but I would still recommend this book as a great read--not a must read, but an enjoyable book to pick up if you have some extra time. 






The Scent Of Sake by Joyce Lebra
Perusing through the bargain area of Chapters, I saw this book for $4 and grabbed it.  It was described as "...a fantastic topic and setting and such strong memorable characters!".  To that I say, phooey.  The main protagonist, a young Chinese girl named Rie, struggles to run her family's sake business in a male dominated society.  The book addresses the changes the Chinese saw within their industrial sector between the 1800s and 1900s. 
Although the concept of the book seems interesting enough, it does not deliver.   The description of China and it's society seems stiff and dull, as though the author watched a documentary on the topic or read a history book and then copied the knowledge learnt into their novel.
The biggest issue, though, that I found with this novel was the main protagonist with very unsympathetic.  There was nothing about her plight that was compelling or moving and I found the book boring and the character dialogue stilted and dry.
I would not recommend this book to anyone.  Pass it by. 






Then Came You by Jennifer Weiner
Jennifer Weiner has written some of my favourite books, including "Good In Bed" and "In Her Shoes".  I decided to visit the library for the first time and months and saw this book on the bestseller express shelf--meaning you have seven days to read and return before you face exorbitant late fines. 
"Then Came You" presents the reader with a group of characters and you hope you will love.   The novel weaves together four women who each face their own demons and are forced, by circumstances beyond their control, to address those issues.  The main premise of the book is a touchy subject:  fertility clinics and surrogate mothers.  The subject that Weiner attempts to write on is heavy but the book surprisingly is a fluffy and light read, which is probably my least favourite aspect of it.  Instead of allowing the reader to emotionally connect and feel what each character is so intensely experiencing, Weiner jumps from aspect to aspect, from the egg donor to the surrogate mother to the infertile wife. 
On top of that, Weiner thrusts a lesbian relationship into the book, somehow squeezing it between flashbacks of certain characters, showing what made them who they are.  Everything felt forced and too quickly introduced, as though you just begin to understand one character and suddenly you're trying to understand the next.  This, I believe, is what makes multiple character narration so tricky to execute in a novel.
All in all, I felt disappointed with the book.  I made it to the end and it was much less painful than "The Scent of Sake", but it wasn't a Jennifer Weiner book that I loved.  The premise of the novel was brilliant;  the execution was poor.  My opinion?:  borrow it from the library instead of paying for a copy. 





Fall Of Giants by Ken Follett
Ken Follett is perhaps one of my favourite authors.  I discovered him last summer with the television program created of his novel "Pillars Of The Earth", which I read in less than week while on a camping trip with friends.  From there I naturally read the sequel "World Without End" and then went back and read one of his first novels "The Eye Of The Needle" which I also found enthralling.
"Fall Of Giants" is his most recent work, the first in the "Century trilogy" and it did not disappoint!  At a whopping 1008 pages, Follett chronicles a time when the world saw the most change--beginning in the early 1900s and continuing on through WWI. 
Despite the fact that I majored in history and found the early 1900s the most compelling time to research, I have always been a bit spotty on the causes of WWI and it's ultimate resolution.  "Fall Of Giants" more than answered those questions and enlightened me with regards to the political pacts and relationships that ultimately caused WWII.  The novel sets the stage of the introduction of WWII and the struggle in Russia for freedom from the aristocratic rule and then eventually from the Communist oppression.
While Follett takes on the difficult task of multiple narratives, each character is interesting and quirky, alive on the page and I often found myself rooting for their cause.  An English feminist campaigning for the suffragettes, a German finding himself on the wrong side of the battle lines, a Russian soldier blindly supporting the cause of Communism and then discovering the truth of Stalin, an American diplomat seeking to ease the relationships between America, France and Germany...each character brings a fresh storyline and dimension to this epic novel that sweeps across continents and time.
If I had to pick my favourite novel of 2011, this would be it.  I am waiting with heightened anticipation for the next book in the trilogy and I am awed by Follett's ability to write. 
The only somewhat boring parts of the novel were the chapters that dealt with the war manoeuvres using terms and concepts I was unfamiliar with.  However, I pushed through those paragraphs and found great reward in doing so.
Definitely a must purchase, despite being a bit costly, though considering the sheer size of the novel, the price is redeemable in my eyes.



The Help by Kathryn Stockett
I'm sure you have heard some buzz about this novel due to it's appearance on the big screen this year.  Typically, I prefer to read the novel before seeing the movie because I find too often that movies bastardize original works, but that was not the case with this movie/book.  The movie was moving and I found myself tearing up on a several occasions, and fortunately when reading the book, I discovered that the director and screen writer kept the movie very close to the original piece of work.
"The Help" is written about a subject not many people consider:  the lives of black housekeepers/nannies during the 1960s in Mississippi.  The city and society I live in is so far removed from what those women experienced and dealt with during that time.  Today we are fortunate enough to exist where racism is greatly diminished and not considered an acceptable attitude.  Of course there are people who are still discriminated against, but generally our government and majority of people are educated to accept all people of any race and decree.  Black people are allowed to swim with white people and share the same toilets, a practice that is normal to us.
However, the time during which this novel is set shows a side of people that is embarrassing and painfully truthful.  I remember sitting in the theatre and hearing the misconceptions brutally loud on the big screen, wondering how people justified those actions and thoughts;  to say that black people spread disease through toilet seats and weren't normal blows my mind and yet it was a common practice back then. 
I don't want to say anything else about this book because I think it should be read and enjoyed in it's entirety...however, I do recommend both the movie and the book.  Make sure you pick it up.

That's all for the book reviews!  As January nears and 2012 approaches quickly, I am trying to compile a list of must reads for the new year.  Any suggestions would be appreciated.  Happy New Year!

Monday, 31 December 2007

New Year's Eve - The Last Thoughts

The last thoughts of 2007...

Why should the change of a number matter so much? So, we enter another year? Should there really be any importance attached to that? The days in fact, seem to run together with increasing speed. As time ticks by and we age, we find that time itself is eluding our grasp. As a child you feel that your days drag by and you wait, anticipating holidays and celebrations. As an adult, you struggle to achieve what you need within the allotted time spot, and you usually end up working into overtime to compensate for the lack of regular time.

Is there any way to slow down the process of aging? Is there a way to enjoy life more fully, without worrying or being anxious about things that need to be done, words that need to be said, changes that need to be made?


A Pastor.

Obviously, I'm not going to name names, or say who, which one, or what church, but oh...my...goodness...
Does the man have a fear of silence?
He stated while he was conducting communion - "Close your hands and just be silent and thank God".
He then continued to expound on what we should thank God for. While certainly not a wrong thing, didn't he just ask us to be silent? Can't he be silent along with us? Does he really have to be so controlling, that he cannot be still and let God lead?
I am more and more convinced that he needs to step back. He needs to be less controlling of the services. I am of course not suggesting that chaos ensure with people rolling on the ground or interruptions occurring. I do think though, that the Spirit can be stifled, and that may very well be what is happening.
And in other news...
It's officially New Year's Eve (one hour in anyway) and I'm still thinking about all I have done and not done in this here 2007.